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Wednesday, 10 June 2009

I'm not Broke..just Broken;

what did i ever do wrong?
i was loyal
i was faithful
i was honest

sooo pissed till today. its been 4 days now!
i just never knew id be this angry at someone for so long.
i've been mad at one person for 2 days but we love each other so were closer now.
that just says so much.
im not going to waste my time thinking about this anymore
lmao he is a leperchaun.
with lots of potholes in his face xP
when i get like this, i retrace my thoughts about how ppl have helped me in so many ways...taking the bad out of him and the good out of me.
awesome I will always love those ppl.
it just really hurts to know that once you begin to trust someone, they dissapoint you in the end. I dont know when ill get over this..maybe a few more weeks, maybe months, maybe..never?
I know its always easyer to forgive then to forget
but in this case I don't think i can even forgive unless he comes back and grovels on the floor for forgiveness.
everyone's right I can do so much better then him because I AM BETTER then him. So what did he not see in me?
why is it that every guy says their freaking 'different' but in the end they all prove to the 'typical' or just 'another ordinary guy?'
should I call him/text him to make amends I mean whats the point of holding a grudge right? I think about doing that, but I go back to the times where I was patient with him and instead of winning my heart truly he goes off doing things with some other girl. I've always known on the inside, but I never wanted it to be true...I was hoping it was WRONG so I can prove to many people that GUYS ARE DIFFERENT! but he proved me right, that all guys are the same, and I can't go on gloating about how different he was.
I wish him luck in the future though, Karma--big bitch;
I dont want to wish anything bad for him, but is it my fault with all of my anger I have? it's natural right or does it just prove im evil?
it's happened the 2nd time with this one...4 times with my last ex..
and with the two i've had I have learned that guys are pointless in a relationship. You can only stay friends with them, if friendship turns to something else, it will end up falling apart making things worse for any kind of relationship.
I'm not broke, just Broken;
how can I move on even knowing for a fact your with her..
HE gave up on ME to be with HER!
that kills me knowing I wasn't good enough for him so he had to go off doing what he did.
whatever happens though, im never going to text him or call him. My choice
but with the anger I feel like he atleast deserves a slap, since I can't do that should I text him...4 days later to tell him off and tell him how I really feel? or i'd just be pathetic right?